This is a fabulous movie, and I can't believe that I went into the cinema twice for it.

Actually I didn't quite expect too much on <Inception>, I was just accompanying Mercury during the first time, but then it turn out to be an excellent movie.

Plus, I really like Eames / Arthur pairing (laugh)

Okay, I didn't planned to view it from this way, but it turns out their conversation was so interesting and I can't help when it leads me to the idea that they were a pair.

So, hopefully that my friends who still haven't watch <Inception> will not read this article before they watched it, or I will be damned.

It hurts people so deeply, whenever we are being compared, especially when comparing to someone you valued so much.

We are meeting up with a client recently, talking about setting up a new company and a whole new magazine.

Though, I really don't understand, why we can't just stuck to the main business topic, and in the end the discussion will be turned towards discussing our personality.


I know that either I or Fanny are not matured enough, and in the ways of business talking, we weren't trained for that, but I thought this is not our concerned, since I am only in charge for the editorial part, and she is in charge for A&P and strategy planning.

Maybe it is my fault, cause I am always not punctual enough, and delayed all the schedules.

But it really hurts me, when the client doesn't understand the whole situation, but still wants to compare us.


First of all, I felt unhappy for Fanny, cause she is a friend that I precious so much. I respect her and accept her as who she is from the beginning when I know her.

Secondly, I don't like it a bit when people compare us, we are different person, with different personality and help each other in all ways.

Lastly, it actually really hurts me, when I know that Fanny is unhappy for being compared (of course nobody is happy for this), and I don't know how to convince her that - please do not heed the client's words.


It seems so insincere, when I know she take those words to heart, and she is upset through and thoroughly for it.

In the end, even though working with this client, would probably bring us a lot of profit, but does it really worth, if in the end, it will make us unhappy each time after meeting them?

I am not quite sure about this deal, it just seem like a gloomy dead-end.

I am not in a good mood...
Grandma is in coma, and her condition isn't too good.
According to dad, she can barely move, and she needs nurses to help her solve sanitation problems.

It is really sad and depressing to see her current condition.
She smiles gently at me before, she had warm and gentle hands...
And now, she can't recognize me, while her arms can't even lift higher then her shoulder.

In the Chinese and Buddha saying, there must be something which is holding her breath, which makes her suffer.
I don't know whether this is true or not, but I wish that she can suffered less.
I wishes her all the best, I just hope that either she can turn out fine, or end this torture.

So, it had been since some time I had updated my blogs.
It had been a busy month, but overall, it is all excuses.

Ever since the trip back from Kuching, I don't felt like I had been taking a good rest.
Can't figure out the problem, since I wasn't really that busy at all.

(Sigh) I just don't want this place seem deserted, so I came to update something.
But guess I just can't do it when my brain is in such a muddling state.

(sigh)
I don't like tagging people, especially people I am not familiar.
Although I don't really mind how people tag me, but I sincerely do not admire the way of people tagging somebody they don't even know.
I always thought that tagging people is quite a silly act, because if you are looking somebody by their tag and not really looking at them, how could you really know who they are, either inside or outside?


Of course, this is because recently I found that I am tagged by one of my secondary school mate.
And this is not the first time I had been tagged, just that I don't like it, but I never really voiced it out.
As I said, she don't even know me, not to mention that I still can't recall who she is until now, and we had lost contact since secondary school, so I didn't mind what she tagged me as.

I just find it quite funny, and ridiculous in all senses.

People had a lot of faces in them, even though there sure are some specialties, such as whether the person is an extrovert or introvert.
But away from that, people can be interesting and not only what you saw them from first impression.


In the end, I don't have any issues on people tagging me.
I just dislike the way people like to tag others.

Hello~this is not a sales market, we don't introduce each other by saying: "I am from XXX brand, priced how much."

But what can I say?
Maybe people are too used to all types of tags that follow them all around, even at home.
Maybe some even felt insecure without any tag following them, because they don't know how to show people who they are.

Grin* Happy is, when I am surrounded by books, a lot of books!
Yup, recently I just came back from The Mines Book Fair.
And, of course I bought a lot of books back with me at the same time.

Just hope all these books can keep me occupied until next year.

I thought that I never really need this, as I don't have that much secret that cannot be knew by my friends.

I know what I am doing, most of the time I am only writing a truth or my personal opinion, and sometimes it is just pure rambling......but then, there are still people who likes to think too highly of themselves, and twisted every word of what I had written.

Of course this is not something I should have accepted happily, so in the end, I decided to give back some privacy for myself - so I set my Yahoo Chinese blog into a private blog.

I didn't block it with passwords or whatsoever, I just changed the website address, so whoever holds the earlier website address, I sincerely hope that it will cause them some troubles in locating my private blog.

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Still, I have to admit, I have the habit of reading thorough people's blog, even though that person is somebody I do not consider as friend anymore.

But why can't I?

If that blog is still a public one, I am sure that not only me, but anybody that came across that, still have the chance of reading it.

So if somebody accused me as peeping, I will deny that, because when the setting is public, I am not peeping, I am just reading a public article.

And will there be any harm?

Well, that is something I can't say for sure, because I like to critic something that I felt wrong, and most of the time, there are seldom who likes being critic, so I believe maybe that is something which makes me quite annoying to someone who had a lot of dirty secrets.

Still, who cares anyway? This is still something requiring only me, and people around me, which just involves very small circle of people.

So, a recent job of mine required me to go back to Perlis, and conduct a photo shooting session with my mum, who can make the most delicious Nyonya Kuih.

Sincerely, I thanks my mum a lot for willing to help out, since I know that doing Nyonya Kuih requires a lot of time, experiences and effort, which is not something simple, and which is why I can only trust on her to accomplish it.

Though, going back to Perlis throws me another problem.

Mum is very concerned over my health problems, so recently she found a Yoga that she think will help me out, though I doubted that and not really interested in joining.

Still, mum's order is an order cannot be overlooked, so I ended up in the Yoga session, whereas I was force to give up the Hatyai one-day trip with Mercury and Max.

Of course I was highly blamed by them, for dumping them and going to that......(sigh) Yoga class, which I really don't want.

So, now I don't know how to convince them, that I was also a victim in this case, because I was forced to pay for RM250......for something I don't feel worthy at all.

I hope for their forgiveness on this case, but still......Kamehame, 180 degree turning on head, or standing upside down using only ten fingers......I really cannot accomplish all this impossibles.

And, this is not referring only to people who brings trouble to my job.

First of all, recently I am throwing myself into a Single Series Baking Recipe Book, and that FUCKING chef brings me so much trouble, that I had to curse him for every recipes I had to edit and proof read.

And to think that there are 30 DAMN recipes I need to proof read.

Furthermore, I can find mistakes in each recipes, while he told me that he had finalized all recipes-- for the second time!!!

Second time! And I can still find a lot of stupid and careless mistakes in it! Which are not supposed to be there, which no professional chef should have allowed it there!

The only lucky thing is, this is the last time I will be working with him, and I can rid him off my magazine forever, that good for nothing so-called-CHEF.

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The second thing is, my friend Lilian and Patrick, both just end their relationship......and Patrick, who is not taking this very well, turns out to be a stalker, which is making things very creepy for Lilian.

He checks on her location through handphone's GPRS, he keeps trying to check her every movement, he wants to know who she is outing with......even though he is not her boyfriend already.

Of course, this is the sole reason why Lilian decides to break up with him, because nobody can accept a person who treats her / him like a pet, and trying to control everything in their life.

Furthermore, he doesn't even think that there are anything wrong about his behavior, just because he claims that he is doing this out of - Love and Caring.

The other reason is, he accused that Lilian was not reliable enough, and cannot be trusted. But, if there are no trust in a relationship, there is no point to keep it already, right?

At the same time, he didn't even cares that what he is doing, is bringing trouble to every people, including he and Lilian's share friends, such as Mercury.

Just because he wants to check out everything, just because he wants to has supreme and absolute control over the girl, he keeps fussing people around that girl, including that girl's family and friends.

My only opinion is, when what you done can only caused depression for the other people, and you don't even know how to respect the other person, you don't have the rights to claim that you love that person......no, you can't even say that, you know what is love.

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And, the third person, is Lilian herself.

She had a lot of emotion and attitude problems, but of course, regardless of this, she is still a nice friend.

Lilian had a difficult past, even though she managed to handle every thing life throws to her, not in a very smart way, but at least she accepts it.

The problem is, people in her life don't seems that willing to let her past just stay as past.

They keep turning it up occasionally, they keep bugging her with everything that happens in her past, and even herself, would not let go of her past.

In this way, the only result is she gets depression, several cuts on both of her wrist, piles of depression medicine, alcoholism, cravings for tobacco......and attitude problems in treating her own life as nothing.

She tends to make things complicated, using shady words and attitude to allow man to look forward for a further relationship, but some times in the end, she thought that was a way of avenging them.

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Life is full of troubles, we meet so many people, so many things that can depress us everyday, but I always believe that, as long as we hold a positive attitude to face all these problems, we can still maintain a happy mood everyday.

Just a few days ago, one of my friends asked me: "Actually, how many blogs do you have right now?"
After answering her, I came to think it seriously one more time.
Yup, just what is the problem with me, for having 4 blogs at the same time?

I had to admit, blog writing was not something I am very interested in, at the very first time it was introduced to net users.
But then, Mercury manage to stir up my interest, by telling me that Window's Live MSN got a wonderful space for people to post their own things.
So I tried it out, and found that it was quite a nice way to communicate with friends, no matter close or long distance friends.
Especially for close friends, whenever I don't feel like talking, explaining or clearing misunderstandings, blogs came in handy.

In the end, almost all those who introduced me blog in the first place have stop writing blog, and I am almost the only one that still continue writing.
And not only writing, it had even become my daily habit to update it.
According to Mercury's opinion, I am addicted to it already.

Even so, it is odd that until today, I still didn't considered myself a blogger.
Maybe because I felt that I had been writing too much nonsense and fiddle-faddles.
Bloggers are supposed to write something more meaningful, at least that is what I thought a blogger should be.

So, 2 Chinese blogs, 1 English journal for me to fiddle in whenever I had the mood, and 1 Japanese blog as my excuse to learn my Japanese......which is altogether 4 blogs.

Not to count those I wrote only per people's request.